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A hard day

I knew this day would be hard... I mean, I'm not one of those people who angst about certain days, mostly because I either don't remember the dates for things or I haven't really lost a lot worth losing... so it seems kind of stupid to consider MJ, a man that I never met, to be up there... but it's true. Today is just a bad day. Worst day of the year, in my mind. It's somber, really. I mean, on this day I'm reminded of what the world lost, but I also remember what the world had, and I'm comforted by the fact that, finally, people are able to get beyond who Michael Jackson was and instead focus on what he did, because what he did was amazing. Absolutely amazing. There will never be another Michael Jackson. People can keep on considering stars like Timberlake and Usher and so on as next in line, but, really, they'll NEVER be Michael. They can't be.

I watched This is It when I got home, and I remember thinking to myself when he first announced the tour that he would NEVER make it through... I still stand by that theory, but I at least expected him to get through some of it, and I never wanted him dead. Today, they showed an interview with Conrad Murray's medical assistant and she basically said the blame for the drug addiction is on the addict, and it pains me to agree with her, but I do. I will lament Michael Jackson's death for the rest of my life, or at least until I go senile, but I will never deny the fact that he brought a lot of what happened to him on himself. That doesn't mean he wasn't a good person, because he was, and that doesn't mean that he wasn't special to me, because he was. He is. He will always be.

I don't Stan for many people, but I will *ALWAYS* Stan for Michael Jackson.

Behind the cut are a few of my favorite MJ songs that weren't hits, that people will overlook simply because they're not Billie Jean, Smooth Criminal, etc. I love those songs, too, but appreciating the songs that didn't get play is just as important as appreciating the songs that did!

It's the Falling In Love from Off the Wall:


Someone in the Dark from the ET Storybook Album:


We Are Here to Change The World from Captain EO, incidentally, I'm rocking the white shirt in this clip today! BLESS YOU DISNEY MERCHANDISE WHORES and girltype:


Gone Too Soon from Dangerous:


Tabloid Junkie from HIStory:


Speechless from Invincible:


It's amazing how fitting some of the lyrics that were in MJ songs apply to him now that he's gone. I think of Ben and I'm like 'damn, this like 14 year old kid was talking about his future and didn't even know it! Nobody did!' And then there's Gone Too Soon, which I've been listening to a lot today as sort of an anthem. I didn't listen to it until today, I couldn't bring myself to listen, but I forced myself to do it...

Michael, you didn't know me, and I'm okay with that... but that doesn't mean you were any less important to me. Miss you and love you!