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I'm just in the computer lab doing absolutely nothing while I wait for my class at 12. This happens to me frequently, although it wil no longer happen to me after this semester ends, since my other schedule calls for me to be in class for three hours straight. I still intend on waking up about 8 every day, but that is more or less for reasons that should be known to most. Like the fact that I want to have time to do shit, like come here and check my mail before class, or get some writing done on Tuesdays and Thursdays when my only class starts at 3:30 and ends at 4:45 (I'll be walking home in the dark a lot next semester. Gonna get me some pepper spray, or maybe a tazer. Mmm, tazer...). I don't know, it's my penultimate semester as a college student, or, should I bite the bullet, stop being so damned stubborn, and actually decide that I can go to grad school, at least my penultimate semester as an undergrad. I have NO desire to keep on going to college once I get my bachelor's degree, though. I'm done with school. 20 years of my life, give or take, have been devoted to school, I think it's time that I actually do something a little different, like start making some money. In the end it'll cost me about five grand, which isn't that much compared to students who have college loans that are way the hell up there.

This shall not be a big update, I'm just writing in here because I am seriously THAT bored. I miss the time when I wasn't so bored. Granted, the last time I remember such things is... okay, I can't remember them at all. I find myself going back and reading a bunch of shit on wiki that I don't even care about, or that I've read plenty of times before, just for the hell of it.

I'm still a-huntin' for RPs, but they do not exist as they used to. Used to be that there were plenty of things that interested me, not so much anymore. I even find myself questioning my desired craft of writing. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love to write... I don't know if I'm very good at it, but I love to do it. The problem is that I don't know if I can stay properly motivated enough to actually make a career out of it. And, given that a single percent, yeah, that's right, 1%, actually CAN live off of their writing, it pretty much means that I'm screwed, since I know I'll fall in that 99%. But maybe that's a good thing, because if I don't write full time I'll appreciate it more. Or something. I dunno.

I'm both amused and angered by the woman known as Kimberly. Apparently she's been doing writing, just not for 'her baby,' instead going to her cousin's little instant RP thing, more chatlike than anything else, which, to me, is stupid. And then yesterday her message on her YIM was like 'it's Christmas Eve in Hellbound, right?' Like she's trying to actually invoke some sort of involvement from people, and yet she doesn't do a damned thing herself. This is life. Let us hope that Sunday brings me something I can sink my teeth into for a year. Cross your fingers!