February 2nd, 2011

Pluto close up

Creativity on Hold

So, yesterday was officially month FOUR without me having a creative outlet for my prose. I've probably had a dry spell as long as that, if not longer, in the past, and while I'm not quite yet going batshit crazy (I'm annoyed, but overall I'm okay), I would still VERY MUCH like an outlet again.

I suppose if I wanted to, I could have participated in NaNoWriMo, but I've never supported that movement. I don't judge anyone who does, but I don't like the idea of being prompted to write something during a specific month. Yes, I know, nobody's making writers do it, but it just doesn't gel with me. And it isn't like there isn't a bunch of groups out there that I could join, but none of them seem that appealing to me. I'm entirely too picky, and I understand that I have nobody to blame for that but myself.

In other news: DCUO is a decent way of passing the time, but I don't see myself investing in it in the long run. I've already hit the level 30 cap with one character, starting up another (this time with Superman as my mentor. NEVER BATMAN!), and I sort of just am like 'but I already did this...' which doesn't work so well in a game where the story is super limited. I was afraid of letting the MMORPG take over my life the way that Everquest did when I was 16, but I've obviously grown quite a bit, and have more things to do with my life now. Or because I have to watch so much TV, I can't also play on the PS3 at the same time. But even when I could be playing DCUO, I sometimes play Mass Effect 2 instead.

It's good that I have something to do, but I miss my passion. I miss developing characters, watching the way that things shape themselves because of a collective event. I miss having e-mails in my inbox that AREN'T just weekly ads from gamestop, amazon, disney and so on.

I just miss it.