October 21st, 2002

Pluto close up

Damn my personality

I'm really cursed with an eerie Magnetic-esque personality. I mean, I don't LIKE people, I really do not enjoy being with people, I've expressed this many times, and will continue to do so. BUT, people LIKE to talk to me, and I don't know why... well, I know why, but I don't like why. My why's consist of A)They like how I make them laugh with my brutal honesty B) I'm far more fucked up than they are, so they can mock me and feel good about themselves and then go drunk/smoke/screw, and C) Use me for my mind/materialism. It sucks... plus there's the fact that I CANNOT really say no, unless it's something that completely compromises my way of life. Honestly... this whole utter anti-sociality makes me more social than I wanted to be. Grr..