October 2nd, 2002

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FUCK... FUCK FUCK FUCK!

No financial aid... it ALL went to paying the funds for the school... you know, if they would have TOLD me this beforehand... I wouldn't have been nearly as pissed. AS it stands I STILL owe the school like 700 dollars... now I have to call my parents and tell them to tell my grandpa to kick the funds because he's an old bastard who doesn't care about any of his family except his son who milks him for all he's worth and his new wife *who is a good person* and her 3 kids. What about me? Huh? Oh yeah... that kid in college, the grandchild who actually has a chance at making it in the real world? *My elder cousin is married 2 kids, no college edu... she isn't going anywhere, and the little one is likely MR... odds against him doing anything worth note are high, but I'm not saying they are bad people... just pointing out facts* God... I don't want to call my parents... I still owe them money for books, and I thought I could pay them... and now I can't even get the woman a present because I don't have ANY money to get her anything... and yes, I also can't get my videogames... now I really need to look into jobs, but there are NONE.

LIFE SUCKS! At least I have new comics to get after I finish checking some stuff out.
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Bah

Job searching SUCKS here... HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!!!!! Everything that looks like something I could even have a chance at doing involves the library... which discriminates agaist those of us who don't have pretty handwriting... there was this thing about writing... but I don't know if I'm A) good enough to do it for the $$$ and B) if I do, can I stomach doing what I love for the money without losing my love for it? I still NEED money... NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED.