HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BoA!!!!!! I love you ever so much! Maybe I'll get lucky and I'll get your single in the mail on your birthday! I think you're in Japan, right now, so... technically your birthday was like yesterday, or for most of yesterday, or whatever, but here in the USA it's today! Thus begins the celebration!

So, me and girltype had it planned out that we would go see This Is It in IMAX. Then she couldn't do it. Then she could. So we did. We didn't check the times, assuming that the movie would be the only movie on IMAX. We were wrong. The only IMAX showing? 10:30 PM!!!! That's late, yo. But, for MJ, we suffer. So, we're at Eastridge, which was formerly quite possibly the most ghetto mall in the history of the universe but is now at least semi-decent. Problem is... we're at Eastridge at 5... so we gotta kill 5 hours.

We shop. I buy my mom 550 dollar earrings for her 50th birthday at Zales. We worry about putting them in the car for fear of thievery, but they're in my possession, so all is well in the world. I buy a Mario chess set (Luigi is the Queen... sigh), and I get some shirts from Anchor Blue. We still have a ton of time to kill, so I'm like 'we should go to Chuck E. Cheese' because the one in San Jose is huge and I have good memories of it. Before that, we go to Ross. We see nothing worth buying, but we do see 5019409304903943 of the ugliest Tinkerbelle sweaters known to man.

Back in the day, Chuck E Cheese in San Jose had two stories and the top story was filled with arcades. It was a wonderful, wonderful thing. Now? It's got a bunch of tables and a severe lack of arcades, which is fail. We do, however, see two little girls dressed up like MJ. People respect... but only now that he's gone. It's sad, really. We stay for like a half hour. As we're leaving I get nailed in the nuts by a kid who runs into me. Very uncomfortable.

We kill some more time around San Jose, stopping at some sandwich place called Lee's where we get a smoothie and something known as boba added to it. Mine is strawberry. The boba is nasty. I spit many boba out because they're just foul little things that I did not enjoy. With nothing else to do, we go back to the mall and kill more time.

Eventually we decide to just go into the movie theater and wait around. We sneak into the Saw VI (aka: the Land Before Time of Horror Films. JUST END THAT SHIT NOW!!!!) theater, watch the trailers (7!) and then walk out. Some guy asks to see our tickets. We got screwed. But he was just like 'yeah, don't do it again.' and we didn't. We went to the IMAX theater and waited for the movie to start.

What's the first trailer they show in IMAX MJ? PRINCESS AND THE MOTHERFUCKING FROG!!!!!!! I squealed. SO GOOD. I want it to be December, dammit. I want it to be December!!!!! Other trailers are fail. Avatar needs to DIAF. And that Christmas Carol will just be bad. Disney going to the well too many times with that one. You got Mickey's Christmas Carol and a Muppet Christmas Carol... be happy with that.

The movie starts. It's the second time I've seen it. Let me tell you, IMAX is a wonderful thing. The picture was so damned clear. It's like HD for movies. I loved it. I loved the movie, too. MJ had so much talent and vision and you could tell he was really, really working his ass off to give the fans a show that would do his reputation justice. Based on everything that he had planned, I would say that if This Is It had happened, it would have been his best tour. I've seen Bad. I've seen Dangerous. I realize that these were twenty years ago or less, so tech wasn't what it is now, but that shit was just amazing. And he could still dance. He doesn't moonwalk, which kind of sucks, or boxwalk, or lean, but that man could still move. And he has the vocals. He keeps on talking about how he needs to conserve his throat, and then he belts out note after note without worrying about it. Oh MJ... you do me proud.

There are some pitfalls to IMAX, however. Remember that guy at the memorial service? Black guy with the most painful face in the history of the world? Yeah... he's in this movie. And when he's in IMAX... it's just bad. That man need no makeup for Thriller. He creepy enough all by himself. And there's this one dancer with BLEACHED blond hair. I couldn't keep my eyes away from him because his hair was just so bright and unnatural. Really, how many men still bleach their hair? I mean, honestly.

The movie does a good job of letting us know what MJ had planned... but it also leaves us with a lot of questions. Questions that unfortunately will not be answered. It's a fitting tribute to the greatest entertainer who ever lived, however.

I don't ramble about you nearly as much as I should (and, really, you shamed me in that Batman costume... you truly did... but at least you didn't dress up like Wolverine like the guy on AMC did, because if you did the love would be DEAD! DEAD!!!!!!!), but you're still much beloved by me, and I hope that you have a wonderful, wonderful birthday.

Kinda. Only not really. It's just a HAPPY ANNIVERSARY FOR THE DAY I MET SCOTT CLIFTON!!!! AKA: One of the best days of my life!!!!!! Mad props to girltype for driving my ass all the way to Berkeley (we had to drive through Oakland!!! OAKLAND!) so that I could meet my idol. It was worth it. There was so much stalking to be had. Good times. Of course, it's all in the 2006 journal entry. I think it was the next day that I posted about it.

If you ever have a chance to meet your idol, people, take it. Provided they're cool (and Scott WAS), it's so worth it.

In other news: Keepsake ornaments this weekend! I'm looking to see which ones I am going to buy!

Kanye West, you are a pathetic sad, sorry excuse for a human being.

I mean, seriously, that was beyond uncalled for.

Tonight is the VMA awards. I don't really care for the VMA awards any more, since I don't particularly listen to English music (I'd watch the hell out of the MTV Japan awards... not really the MAAs because they're kind of shitty. If MTV Korea had their own awards show proper, yeah I'd watch that!), unless it's old artists that I love or Westlife (WESTLIFE!). MJ is MJ, however. I would watch the whole damned thing if he was alive and was going to make an appearance. I wouldn't care. MJ is my boy, now and forever.

In other news: upgraded my account to paid again. I don't know why, mostly for icons really. I barely use this damned account for anything more than checking ONTD and occasionally posting something on the GH board. But whatever, right? It's only 20 bucks, and I'm sure eventually I'll probably get back to updating this thing on a more frequent basis.

In other other news: Been playing a lot of Star Wars: The Force Unleashed. Almost done with it. I like it a lot. I've also put in over 50 hours on Dissidia: Final Fantasy. That's all right. I mean, you'd think that with the amount of time I've spent playing it that I would be madly in love with it, and I was for a little bit, now I'm not. I don't think I will beat it ever, but that's okay. I mean, I have SO many damned video games that I haven't ever beat. Hell, I've got a crapload of video games that I haven't even played.

And what am I getting this week? On Wednesday, probably? TWO MORE VIDEO GAMES!!!! Mario and Luigi: Bowser's Inside Story (which will own at life, I know it! Those Mario & Luigi games are HILARIOUS!!! Even the one that made Luigi an uber-homo! I STILL LOVE YOU, LUIGI!) and Marvel Ultimate Alliance 2. I am EXTREMELY jazzed about both of those games. I hope that Psylocke will be a downloadable character in the PS3 version. If I *NEED* to, I will probably buy the Wii version just to play as her, but I don't particularly want to. There's a shitload of characters that are specific to the consoles that I'm not buying the game for. Okay, not a shitload... but Blade (meh), Cyclops (MEH!!!!! THE LOVE IS GONE!), Psylocke (DENIED!!!!!) Sentry (blah) and She-Hulk (JEN! Sigh!). Sentry and She-Hulk are DS exclusive characters. Really, the DS gets exclusive characters? Well okay...

Six and a half hours until MJ tribute!!! JANET, DO YOUR BROTHER JUSTICE!

You're gone, and my world is still a more depressing place because of it. But you gave me so much, and I will always, always appreciate you because of it. From the music to the dances to the jokes that were made at your expense (but still with all the love in the world! Never without deep love, MJ! NEVER WITHOUT DEEP LOVE!), you're an important part of my life. The legacy will not die. I promise you that.

Back from Vegas. Very tired. My body hurts. 8 days of Disneyworld, 4 days of Disneyland, these CANNOT compare to what ONE day in Vegas did to my body, let alone 3. By Saturday I was in pain and it was just bad all day yesterday. I was better today, thankfully.

Green Day rocks. I appreciated them before, but I actually like them like them now. I would go again. But next time I go I will go after having listened to their albums so that I can understand what the hell is going on and what they're saying (considering I know about 5 of their songs, one of which wasn't played, I was sort of just standing there smiling but not getting into it the way other people were...), but I WOULD see them again, no questions asked. I'd even go to Vegas again to see them, though I pray to God that they never go in August.

AND I SAW MJ!!!! Okay, the Vegas impersonator, who doesn't SOUND like MJ, and barely LOOKS like him unless he has the mask on, but that fool can danceeeee! AND HE PLAYED JAM!!!! Which rocked. We took pictures with him afterwards. Good times.

I'm tired. SO tired. SO TIRED!!!

Oh, and our plane got delayed an hour. Damned weather.

Thanks to girltype for inviting me!!!! We'll have the memories!

I'm still alive, obviously. I really don't know how often I'll be posting here any more. I mean I tend to go through spurts with my LJ anyway, times when I want to update a lot and times when I don't. This is one of those times when I don't.

Really, I just wanted to share some AWESOME upcoming busts that I'm going to be buying!

The Horned King!

http://www.shopafx.com/diblcahokibu.html

I'm not the biggest fan of the Black Cauldron. I'm really not. I own the tape, the dvd and I will be buying the special edition when it comes out, but that's just because I love Disney. I don't really love the black cauldron. But the horned king? The horned king is a BAD ASS. Like, it goes Maleficent (she said hell, after all) and then the Horned King. I'd be so happy if he was in a Kingdom hearts game. Even if it was just as a hidden boss or something. The Japanese like the Horned King. They're the only Disney park in the world that has ever featured the Black Cauldron in one of their attractions. It's since been closed, but that shit was pretty damned impressive. Look up Cinderalla's Mystery Castle Tour on youtube. Mind will be blown.

Stitch! Or, as I call him now, Stitchy because that's how they say it in the anime and it makes me laughhhhh!

http://www.shopafx.com/distpobu.html

I love Disney busts. I love that Disney has FINALLY gotten someone to make busts. They have a lot more, but none of them are all that necessary (IE: there's no Aladdin bust to buy SOMEONE for their birthday... but when it comes out, it will be bought. Oh yes, it will be bought... unless it's Prince Ali... I know these things...). And I pray for Donald, Panchito, Jose and Gopher. I'll more than likely get Donald, the rest I would be extremely lucky to get. I'll admit that few of the non-anthropomorphic animal characters are really all that bust-able, so I can't hold it against them if they don't.

Now all I need is Nintendo to make busts. Link, Zelda, Luigi, Samus... YES PLEASE!

We had like a dozen people here. I hate having people here, I really do. I'm at home, and I just want to relax. It's hard to relax when you've got a bunch of people here. Including children. They're my cousins, sure, but when did it become MY responsibility to entertain children? It shouldn't be. Those damned kids should just stay with their dad/uncle and leave me alone.

Aside from the children/people, today's been a rather good day. I got my painting from Disneyland in the mail AND my copy of GI Joe, the complete series. There's a DVD slot for the movie, too (something that Transformers lacks), which is cool except for the fact that I don't know when GI Joe will come back out on DVD. Two of the 'big three' from Hasbro/Sunbow have come out. I just PRAY for the complete Jem series to be announced at some time.

But I'm still watching Transformers, the complete series. I'm on the last disc of episodes right now and then I'll watch the final batch of special features and be done with the entire series. I kind of wanted more of the commercials that Hasbro had in the archives. I'm sure that they had EVERY commercial they did, and that would have been so freakin' cool to watch! And I love the shit out of the Dinobots. I mean, seriously, in love with them. Grimlock is my idol. MY IDOL!

Well, not really, MJ is my idol. One of them, anyway. A pretty big one. I love MJ. I still feel SO lost without him. I've dealt with celebs that I loved dying before (Hello, Estelle and Bea!), but never to the point that I was STILL depressed three weeks later. Sure, it took me basically over a year to watch Golden Girls after Estelle died, but I can't STOP listening to MJ the same way I could STOP watching Golden Girls. MJ is just... he's a part of my life. He's this entity that has clutched onto me and has been part of what people identify me with (seriously, at work everyone's like 'when I heard I thought of YOU and what YOU must be going through...' and I bet a bunch of my dormmates from college thought of me, too... maybe just 'I wonder how that freak who loved MJ is taking it,' but still...), and I miss him.

My cousin is in town this weekend. I didn't know she was in town this weekend. I had heard that she was coming, but that was on Friday and then I call my grandmother today and she tells me that my cousin is in town. On my grandmother's dime. My grandmother who does not work and is living off of social security. But oh no, when the princess wants to come, who pays for the ticket? My grandma. My cousin takes advantage of my grandmother all the time. It sickens me. It really does. Don't misunderstand me, I love my cousin, but I truly dislike a lot of the things she does. She works (she's a hooters girl!), so why can't she pay for her own flight? Tomorrow I'm going to spend most of the day with them, that way the princess doesn't get all butthurt that I didn't see her and then have my grandmother be upset that she's upset. I haven't even seen my grandmother since Disneyland. I still have to give her all the pictures and frames and everything. My cousin is going to be mad that I didn't invite her to go, but her ass told me she didn't like Disneyland, so...

FIVE EPISODES LEFT! Return of Optimus Prime!

I await the moment when everyone leaves and I can just kick back!

Is that if I don't dvr the memorial like I'm intending, I'm going to be pissed. It isn't listed on any of the channels, so I'm having to record stuff that I would never record otherwise (good thing I'm not using TiVo, because then I'd have to sort through about five dozen different shows that they THINK I would like), but if that doesn't work I'm going to miss it. And that would make me sad.

Listening to MJ. Been listening to MJ most of the day. I added some Mariah, but I've been listening and watching MJ lots. I'm DVRing the funeral, since I won't be here that day, and I don't think my coworkers would be very understanding of me needing to take the day off to watch MJ's funeral at home. They MIGHT, if I hadn't just gotten back from Disneyland and taken the week off... I could call in that day, but they'd know.

Why am I going deaf? Because that shit is LOUD! My mom wants it loud because she's making food in the kitchen and the layout of the house is such that sound from my room doesn't hit the kitchen very well. This song, Give In To Me, off of Dangerous? It's AMAZING!!! It's the rock song of this album, like Dirty Diana and Beat It, good shit is gooooood!

It's just so hard. He's been gone over a week, and I still miss him so damned much. SO DAMNED MUCH. The music will ensure that the legacy lives forever, though. The music and the fans like me and girltype, who were true to the end and won't let the legacy die! Future generations shall know of MJ, I vow this.

And now it's Will You Be There. This song is so beautiful, and so touching, and now that he's gone it's so crushing at the same time. Especially what he says at the end. Michael, I will never let you part, for you are always in my heart.

I've got time to write about it right now, so I'm going to. It doesn't have pictures, nada.

( The Happiest Place on Earth )

My boss was dying. She'd been dying for a long time. And now she's not dying any more. She's gone. I'm sad, understandably so, but I'm also glad because that woman went through so much stuff to try and save her and none of it worked. I'm sad because I didn't get to give her the present I bought for her and my other boss at Disneyland, and now it's just going to make my other boss very sad.

My phone is missing. I had it on vibrate, so I can't call it and hear it ring. I might be able to call it and hear it vibrate. I know it's in the house, because I had it with me last night while I was watching Wipeout and I Survived a Japanese Game Show and I didn't leave after that. Maybe it vibrated and fell off... hmm...

Edit: Somehow, my phone got put way the hell up on top of the dresser... I wonder who did that.

I'm back. Got back yesterday at 6:30. Spent much time unpacking and getting my stuff in order. Watched the prerecorded BET awards, but it ran long so I didn't even see Janet give her speech. Sigh.

Longer post about Disneyland is forthcoming at some point.

Yup.

Me and girltype always talked about how bad it would be WHEN we lost him. How crushed we would be. Basically, it would be one of the worst days ever. And then it happened, and I wasn't ready for it. With Farrah I expected it, but this? This was just... so wrong. I'm crushed beyond words, trying to avoid the internet at all costs because, really, I don't want to deal with this.

Thankfully, I've got girltype in my life. We was true blue to the end, and we still will be! We're not like those fakers who would talk shit about him all the time and now that he's gone are all 'oh, I loved him so much and I'm going to miss him!!!' Nah, nah, you all are a bunch of poseurs and you need to get the hell out!

Today, I woke up for the first time with knowing that Michael Joseph Jackson is gone. And my world is bleaker because of it.

Off to Disneyland tonight. I wish I could be happier about it!

I do. I got him a gift card to guitar center. I tend to hate giving gift cards due to the high level of impersonality implied, but when it comes to getting my father ANYTHING, even something I KNOW he would want, he just doesn't use it. I've basically subjected myself to that fate. My dad will rarely enjoy that which I give him. So, giving him a gift card, which shows I actually WENT somewhere instead of just giving him cash, is the easiest route. Plus, it's guitar center. My dad's a musician (or something). It all works out.

But that's all we did. I gave him his present, and that was that. We're very low key here. And even though I kind of want to take him to dinner, he's passed out on the couch. If Christmas didn't involve decorating the TREE, I probably wouldn't even like Christmas. And those of you who have been on my list long enough know that Christmas is pretty much my the only holiday I look forward to. We're very low-key here.

He's up, maybe I should suggest something. No, because he'll just end up waiting for his friends like he always does.

WHY IS IT SO SLOW TODAY?!?!

I took video footage of my grandmother, her sister, and my aunt singing while I was in So Cal. I thought I could upload it and give it to my relatives. Sadly, as I found out when I uploaded the footage this morning, my camera doesn't take sound footage. Or I did something wrong and it was on silent. I honestly have no clue. But it still sucks.

However, I have pictures! Remember, I have no idea how to reformat this shit, so it's going to be big and make your browser be all jacked up. I'll but them under a cut so your friends list doesn't get screwed up.

And yes, pictures of food, too!

( But first, we start with the best! )